nicolasconfessions

my cat has only cat syndrome!

everytime i try and take his ball off him so that i can throw it for him he growls like a bloody dog!!!!!!

I have just been reading up about the effects on your body that working nights has...and guess what folks its not good

me thinks its time to start moochin for another job.

working nights apparently gives women a 60% more increased chance of getting breast cancer, ontop of numerous other unsightly nasty diseases and life threateneing illnesses.

anyone have any ideas on what i should go into please?!

last night I was in my usual mood…achingly horny. My bloke came home from training extremely exhausted. Yet, my insatiable appetite for sex makes me want it even more while I am getting it! hehe
He bathed sighing with exhaustion and hoping I would get the clue to let him rest. However, it just made me find it even more challenging to arouse him for my needs. He laid completely naked on the bed and like a tiger to her prey I draped myself on to him and started to kiss him…then his neck…then his chest and teased his nipple while gently massaging his cock. Licking and gently biting my way down making sure to rub my breasts on his skin, he was ready for my mouth.
He positioned himself upward to see what was happening down below. Not taking my eyes off of his I started to lick his hard cock. Up and down and I gave him a look of lust and wanting. With my ass up in the air and my mouth closing in on the head of his cock, you could say I looked like a subject worshiping her God!! Keeping my tongue out as I sucked, I went up and down slowly keeping my eyes locked on his. I could see him watching me, then looking at my ass and even looking at the mirror behind me as if he was watching a movie. I could feel his cock grow harder and harder as I slowly increased the pace of my act. I wanted to please him, I wanted him to feel good, this was not about me and it was going to be about him!
I would have love nothing more for him to cum in my mouth for me to swallow and this would have made me hot. But, he did not want that (damn) and I wanted to make him happy. He wanted me to climb on top and fuck him. I did as he wished. When I first climb on to his hard cock it takes a lot for me not to cum right away. There is something about having a finger, cock or toy enter a woman’s wanting and aching pussy. It feels like a rush of naughtiness that just yearns for more.
I start to move up and down on his rock, hard dick. I stare down as his face as he is focusing on the two large breasts before him. He grabs them, pinches my small, pink nipples and he starts to suck them. I grab on to the headboard and start to fuck him harder and hard. I could feel my face grow wild with lust, I start to clench my teeth together and concentrate on the fuck. I could feel every touch, grab and pinch he was making. The harder I fuck the rougher he gets! His hands never left my tits and the right hand releases and immediately there is a sharp slap to my left breast. I buck on his cock and moan with such a sudden rush of pleasure. I can feel the climb inside me and I can start to urge the orgasm that festers inside my pussy. I focus harder to not lose this ascending climb of pleasure that has been bottled up inside. He continues to give me nice slaps and hard grabs. My eyes are shut tight, I bite my bottom lip and I blurt out…”I am going to cum”. The pleasure of this climax releases a violent instinct and I claw at the wall with one hand and grab hold of ruggas chest with the other. He gasps in the pain and I realize in my moment of “lost” to let him go. I hit the wall and I am spent. Sometimes I can go on riding to have multiple orgasms and other times just that one is enough to drain.
I fall down beside him. He grabs me and puts me on my back and forces himself between my locked legs. Inside, I don’t want this and I cannot bare more pleasure. He rams himself into my wet pussy and I scream. The flood of tingling pleasure sears up my body. I grab on to him yelping at every thrust. Every other thrust sends my pussy flooding with wetness. This has never happened before because I never allowed it. My nails dig into his back as he pushes harder into me. One orgasm after another and I lose count not knowing the beginning or ending to each orgasm. It felt like a roller coaster of pleasure…up and down over and over again. Just when I felt I could take no more he makes a final hard thrust as he cums inside me. My mouth cracks a smile from the right side and I lick my lips. If I didn’t know any better I think he appreciated my determined efforts to fuck him.
Yes, it started all about him, but how quickly the tables turn…does that make me a bad person?

Where do I begin from such an evening, perhaps I can get through this with flashes…
At one moment we are fighting on the stripped down bed. It hurts as he grabs me and I use every effort to over take him. Yes, I do for just a second, it was kinda nice being the girl on top, but that did not last for long you see.
Flash
I have a scarf around my neck. He has it held down so tight to restrict my breathing. I am pinned to the bed. I know I am playing viscously with myself.
Flash
I am on all fours like a well trained, sex slave. He is beating my ass with his hand. Yes, it hurts and yes I enjoy it. He pulls my hair hard and grabs the back of my neck to put the point across that I am HIS and I WILL do what he wants.
Flash
On my back pulling on my own nipples…he has one hand around my throat hard and his other hand is violating my drenched pussy with a dildo. I am insatiable and all of this stimulation is too much for my mind. It is a sexual chaos and I almost feel outside of my body. I reach down and start to rub my hard clit. He starts to stare down at my pussy and watches me get off. I can tell he loves it as he glares and I am cumming.
Flash
He pulls me by my satin, black thong into the shower.
“Get up against the wall, like you are supposed to”, he says.
My hands are up on the wall, my ass sticking out and I wait ever so patiently. He hoses me down and soaps my entire body. He still keeps my thong on as he washes my pussy and ass.
Flash
He pushes me down on the stool in the shower. He takes the showerhead and hands it to me. He wants me to masturbate as the water gushes out in a hard stream. I position the showerhead under my thong. Instantly my eyes flutter with the pleasure massaging my clit. The pleasure increases. I can see his dick getting hard between each eye roll. I can see his hand grab his dick and jack it off. I get more turned on. I want to suck it. I lean forward and I suck it between orgasms. My body jerks with each orgasm and he grabs my nipples and pulls on them each time. I am going to lose it. How much more can I take?
Flash
He dries me off like his prize. He pulls down the drenched thong.
Flash
I am so exhausted and he pushes me on the bed. He forces my legs apart and starts to fuck me.
All that in one night…I am spent but happy!

I remember the first time I tried on latex. It was during my first ever holiday away with a boyfriend when I had just turned 22. we had gone away to canada for 3 weeks. I went travelling after university but that was with friends so it was different! Feeling adventurous we went out in the rain on a mission to find something interesting to wear. We found this hole in the wall shop that had costumes. I picked out a nurse outfit. It was shiny and white with a zippered front. Hehe
Putting it on I instantly felt sexy. It hugged my curves and was nice and short. I had on a white corset underneath and white lacy french knickers…yes I had to match! I love white underwear it makes you look soo innocent! Dressing up makes one feel bold and apart from your normal self.
I remember hiking up that little nurse outfit to fuck my fella. I recall him unzipping that outfit to reveal my goods and peeling that outfit from my hot body with a look of suck excitement on his face…it was his fantasy for me to dress up and I made sure that I played my role to the upmost. I was indeed a very naughty nurse that evening!
After our trip I put that little outfit away…and just recently when I went back home for the weekend I raided my old wardrobe and found it hanging up in the back! i brought it back to cardiff with me and decided to try it on again. I still fitted into it! My breasts are now considerably bigger even though back then I was still carrying my university weight, yet I still managed to squeeze them in. I phoned up my neighbour and told her I needed a favour….i wanted her to take a pic of me in the outfit so that I could be naughty and send a pic of myself to the rugga man and LB! I wanted to see which one responded first, and which ever one did I would treat them with a night of naughty nurse antics and the best bed side manners any man could wish for!
I bribed her with a bottle of wine, and she soon came round to the prospect of having to photograph me…she knows what im like
2 Bottles of wine later and two giggling women got dressed up, she decided that she wanted to dress up in my french maid outfit and for me to take a pic of her so that she could send it to her army man that she fucks from time to time when he is home! So there we were taking pictures of each other, hahaha if my housmate had walked in on us, god knows what he would have thought! Im sure we would of provided him with wank material for weeks! Hehe 
I sent the pics….LB reponded the quickest with a ‘jesus woman what are you trying to do? Kill me?! What are you doing on the weekend?come to mine and make sure you bring that outfit you absolute minx! x’
Rugga man responded after about 20 mins… ‘FUCK ME.is this what you wear when im not with you?!damn! You can be my private nurse any day of the week…im getting in the car now, and I expect you to answer the door to me in that outfit!’

HEHE men are soo easy to amuse! Love it! I love the man who ever invented the camera phone…I owe him many thanks!

x

an hour after he had used me i was already ready for it again. it is funny, the more you get fucked, the more you want it. i think that holds true for me!

“tomorrow morning we’ll play before i have to go to work.”

i accepted his answer and went to bed.

the next morning i woke up before him and went into the living room. I turned on the tv and started to watch jeremy kyle (no judgement please!!!!) lol
he slumbered into the room a little while later and laid beside me on the sofa. i started to squirm against him and he knew. his hand started to graze my warm skin and grope at my nipples and then he moved onto trail between my legs and i began to thrust hungrily against his hand. he pushed my panties down and without haste i kicked them off.

he got to the floor and crawled between my legs, pushing them wide to accommodate himself. he hovered over me like a beast as he rubbed his cock up and down my wet slit and slid it inside of me. there is nothing like the feeling of his cock, no matter how many dildos or vibrators he shoves in and out of me…it is his cock that i crave to fill and fulfill me. my nails dug into his broad back and i saw him slightly flinch at the pain. i love gripping his back, his large arms. i feel safe with him and i feel so small beneath him. his head nuzzled into my neck as he raked his teeth against my sensitive flesh. i groaned and sucked in a mouthful of air as he bite and sucked. i tightened around his cock as i pulled my legs up to allow him full penetration. i never want him to stop as clenched his cock so tight with this dying need for him. i hate when he pulls out of me, it always sudden and too soon for me. this physical connection and intimacy makes me feel whole with him.

i turned over with my ass in the air tempting him to fuck me again. his hands dug into my hips as he pushed back inside of me and i always let out a gasp when i feel that first thrust. i pushed my face into the pillow and gripped the edge of the sofa as he pushed into me with a force of punishment. his right hand reached around and pulled on my breast as he didn’t hesitate with his rhythm. he squeezed and hissed at me. when i hear him i feel i am cumming over and over. i get so lost, yet so focused on him going in and out of me.

he slapped my ass and my head shot upward. his hands dug into my ass and spread me open. what is it with men and the arrhole?!!! im naughty though i always want him to take it and use it. it is very rare. he only ever done it the once and that was when he wanted to put me in place!!! id been a 'badgirl' lol. but he knows that id have it again...he just teases me with this knowledge and drives me insane with it!

im happy

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i have been meeting up with rugga again i cannot help myself! He comes to my gym and works out from time to time, I did not know this until i saw him on tuesday evening. Im not quite sure why he comes to a gym when he has equipment at home...i think he likes working out around others...as i was there sweating away listening to my ipod, he seemed to be effortlessley working out...took him about 25 mins to even break out into a sweat! which i think is odd because when we fuck his forehead is always covered in beads of persperation, and he gets a lower sweaty back...i love that the most, for some strange reason it really turns me on more when i feel that! i bizarly after a good session notice that my forearms sweat!!!!! (just thought id throw that random bit of info in there for you guys!)

my house is only 2 mins walk away from the gym (lol im a clever one me...im not trecking to the place!) so he came back with me for some post workout fun and games. I wanted a bath first though as i felt rather stiff, he offered to give me a massage but i wanted a bath...secretly i wanted him to join me, yet he seemed to become ingroesed in 'im a celeb' (yes i know its very tragic) so i went and ran the tub!

i am in my safe haven, the one place that i always find solace. my eyes were heavy as my head rested against the cold porcelain tub and wall. i closed my eyes and let the heat soak away the pain in my muscles. i think that i over did it on the cross trainer i could feel my muscles tensing up. the water felt like a soft velvet against my skin.

after about 10 minutes i heard him come in the room, kneel by the tub and grab the soap. without any thought my ass rises out of the water to allow him access!!!! his soapy hand ran from my ass to my pussy and back over and over. his fingers would graze in every crevice and it always leaves me wondering at what point will he push a finger inside of me or will he?

i always shudder and clench when his fingers slip past the folds of my cunt. i wonder if he can feel me swell with lust, i wonder if his finger tips can feel the difference between the wetness seeping out of me and the water and soap combination. if he decides not to touch me is it because he knows i want it so bad and he wants to tease me. he always seems to catch me off guard with an immediate plunging of two fingers deep inside of me as he rubs at my g-spot rupturing the water in the tub to a violent storm. my head was pressing harder into the tub as my knuckles were turning white gripping at the edge.

that lustful rage that grows inside of me makes me thrust against his push as i want to envelope his hand deep inside of me. like a trigger i am a starving beast that cannot get her fill, the need constantly builds stronger as i keep thrusting back against his push. my teeth clench and i hiss through with a slight growl. the waves jump from the tub and i am far from being sated. i am far from being complete. my body has reverted to such a primal state of two words “fuck me”. that is all that chants inside of brain like a broken record that is gradually speeding faster on the turn table.

“fuck me”

“fuck me”

“fuck me”

my ass was higher in the air as my head lowered near the splashing water. grunts filedl my throat as i pushed back harder and harder against his hand. i wanted to feel him inside of me.

“turn over”

i rushed to get on my back as he yanked his pants down getting in the tub, grabbing my arse cheeks and squeezing them hard. he entered me from behind and started to thrust between my legs. i was gripping his back with my nails and finding his shoulder with my teeth. i leveraged my leg out of the tub and poised the other on the edge against the wall.

“fuck me”

“fuck me”

“fuck me”

my teeth were close against his thick skin as he snarls at me. i feel his cock force inside of me matching my primal need to scratch this dying itch. his teeth ran up and down my neck roughly and i can feel his edges scraping at my flesh. that building need starts to change as i feel my orgasm mounting me and changing the winds of direction. my legs began to tense and lock as the water flows in crevices and around flesh. i watched the muscles in his shoulders strain to fuck me to completion and right when i come my nails dig deeper into his back causing him to hiss at me. i saw colors, i felt weightless and i tried to catch my breath. all of a sudden i feel i am back to a complex reality of many colors, words and thoughts.

at times i much prefer the primal mode of just “fuck me”.

he draws the animal out of me every time....mmmmm

missing LB this intensely has indeed sent me a little crazy, and on Saturday after several pints of carling and lime and a Testosterone filled rugga match (i went to go watch wales V south Africa)...I found myself halfway through the match watching my ex fling on the pitch and reminising about previous fuckfests and before i knew it my panties were soaking!

sadly wales lost...hmmm i shall not bore you with my anger towards Henson...fucking pansy assed boy, every time he got the ball he would let it go...not once did i see him even run with it, even though he had numerous chances to(grrrrrrrrrrrrrr)whoops wasnt suppose to get mad again...lol anyway swiftly moving on!

i text my man after the match and told him how crazy he had made me feel...i didnt really expect a response, i just wanted him to know that i was there watching him and that i still thought about him! 4 hours after the game had finished i had a reply back off him

"Babes long time no fuck got a meal i have to go to, but will meet you after when in bar. wear skirt and no panties. ill ring you when im out x"

WOOHOO

I got a taxi to the hotel where the South African team were staying and where he was having the post match meal..he was indeed in the bar.

I was wearing a black knee length black pencil skirt with a slit up the thigh, and a lace corseted top with my new found bigger boobies up and out on show. he hadnt seen my new size 12-14 size and i wanted to chow off my curves! ive gone back to my natural hair coloring (red rather than blonde, so in all fairness i did look rather different to how i did when he last saw me!) he did a double take when he looked up and saw me, i was soo nervous, walking into a room of huge men and their pretty petite blonde girlfriends and wives is scary enough, without the thought that your man might not even recognise you....but all was ok, infact it was better than ok, he walked up to me staring at me and he cracked a smile, put his drink down on the table and wrapped his arms around me, kissed me and picked me up off the floor!:D:D lol even with my 4inch killer heels on im still shorter than him!

yippee he still wants me! I think people who say men like women with a bit of meat on them are right…my confidence is soaring at the moment, im soo happy!

we didnt end up getting back to his place until quite late...id forgotten what it was like at these type of things...mingling between the players, chatting bollocks! was all good fun though i met up with a couple of the girls who are dating his squad mates and we had good banter, none of them asked me where id been, nor did they say anything regarding if any other girls had been to this kind of thing with him in my abscence! lol

When we were mingling seperatly, i kept having the feeling that someone was watching me and whenever my eyes wandered around the room he was stood there eyeballing me like a hawk!! one of the south African’s took a shine to me, and kept me supplied with champers, even when i was elsewhere and my glass was running on empty he would emerge from no where and offer me a new glass! love it! i could see that this was amusing my man, as when our paths crossed he whispered in my ear that my admirer had been enquiring as to who I was…my man told him sharply that I ‘was his’ haha the cheek of it! Hes claimed me as his property! Well I suppose for that night I was! As I too only wanted him and no one else!

When we did get back to his place he started out sweet, kissing me intensely and passionately, but that soon changed as i became more horny and in need of him touching me. As we lay on the sofa I started grinding up against him, his hand slipped up my skirt and he was rewarded with the no panties request that he’d made earlier on! As his fingers crept up my thighs I could feel my wetness already seeping out of me. When he felt this, he got down on the floor on his knees, pushed up my skirt and spread my legs and just stared. Normally this would make me a little self conscious but with the champagne running through my blood I had no qualms and infact told him to stop looking and to start licking my clit! Hehe, after making me cum easily he pulled me up to stand up, fireman flifted me over his shoulder, spanked my ass and carried me through to his bedroom and placed me so that I was bent over the bed.

“spread your legs”, he demanded.

he proceeded to taunt and grab at my swollen pussy lips.

“you have a pretty pussy”, he said.

with that he turned on the light to get a better view of me waiting and ready for him to fuck me. he slapped my ass repeatedly in between stroking my hot cunt. he positioned himself behind me placing his feet under my raised tippy toes. i had to be at the right height for him to fuck me properly. he pushed himself inside of me like he had been needing this, like myself for a long time!

fucking me mercilessly like never before i was growing wetter and wetter around his cock. I could feel that every inch of him was inside of me, I could feel my pussy hungry for his cock tightening around him with every thrust. i did not want this to stop.

he took out a scarf and pulled it around my neck as he continued to violate my throbbing hot pussy. He’d never done anything like this before to me…it made me abit uneasy but hey ill try anything once and I knew I could trust him as hed never hurt me.

as he tugged on my neck forcing in me on to his dick i would come all over him. it did not matter, he kept fucking me senseless. i took it like a good girl and i could not get enough as the scarf would tighten and release…tighten and release. my pussy was leaking from so much stimulation. i could feel my juices run down my thighs.

for once i felt completely controlled and taken. his commands and my responses were matched. his body slapping up against mine. i wanted to be sore from him fucking me. i have been wanting it like this for so long. i felt like i was in a dream state as he forced, pulled, groped, grabbed, pulled, slapped my body.

flipping me on to my back then grabbing both of my thighs and sliding me effortlessly to the edge of the bed, he continued to fuck me. he spread my legs wide apart and grabbed at my thighs as he pounded me.. small moans would escape my mouth. his pace quickened and i knew he was going to cum. he let out a breath as he came inside of me as i continued to milk him roughly with my puss. each pull made him let out a loud grunt. i love doing this to him.

when he pulled out, immediately i can feel his cum oozing out of my hot pussy and down to my ass. he started to rub my hard clit with this cum, and he kept rubbing untill i came mixing my juices with his!!!

I was exhausted, but satisfied…god we are good together!

And I was surprised at how much id enjoyed being submissive towards him. We’d taken domination to a whole new level..im not sure if id do it again, but I will enjoy the flashbacks for many weeks to come im sure!

Hehe…I love being naughty!

am i so wrong as to tease LB throughout the day and night?

i think it is only fair as i have naughty thoughts running through my mind during my waking moments. sending over those little words that i piece together to get him going is the only joy that i can have when we are not together!!

i miss his touch!

now i am abit of a techno phobe...but i need this sorting as its driving me mad.

i used to get emails alerting me to whenever i had any new comments, or whenever i had commented on someone elses blog and they had added reply...but now since the server has changed and gone all swish i have no idea how to get back the emails.

please can someone help me?!